Painting while emotional
is not my usual gig.
I have had some emotions that are unfamiliar
I don't like the Anger feeling
I try to talk myself out of it
I want to fix it
I clean in anger
and in this painting I added a couple of layers
while in anger
I have learned in these past couple years
that I can't fix "it".
These happenings that make the anger grow.
I just get to ride the wave
how I deal with what is happening
And I know I haven't dealt with them well at times.
This painting has
layers of anger
layers of sad
layers of loss
layers of messy
layers of hope
layers of dreams
layers of following along
layers of doing my own thing
all mixed together
in the end
anger can be beautiful
in my Wabi Sabi world
as long as I don't dwell there too long
(and my house is cleaner...)
one is turning away
Even as the other tries to hold it close
perhaps this painting is about more than
just these flowers
A painting mess
jump in (it's not in my nature - I plan and figure it all out first)
Fear is on this ride.
But as I learned from Big Magic...
fear no longer get's to drive.
The ugly stage comes and goes.
a stage in every painting and in every life. (sometimes more than one)
I have to walk away - sleep it off - ignore the fear beast.
sometimes art get tucked away for a while
but eventually I have to come back
find the beauty in the trees
Find the trees in the chaos
Find me in the chaos
Find peace in me
this is why i do this.
wabi sabi is finding beauty in the mess,
in the broken, in the imperfections
that are this LIFE... it is imperfectly beautiful.
to find beauty in the imperfections.
"to make visible that which without me would not be seen"
my art is a safe place
to find peace and beauty
and by finding this peace and beauty in artwork,
translate that to my life.