Painting while emotional
is not my usual gig.

I have had some emotions that are unfamiliar 
like anger.

I don't like the Anger feeling
I try to talk myself out of it
I want to fix it
I clean in anger
and in this painting I added a couple of layers
while in anger

I have learned in these past couple years 
that I can't fix "it".
These happenings that make the anger grow. 
I just get to ride the wave
how I deal with what is happening
And I know I haven't dealt with them well at times.

This painting has
layers of anger
layers of sad
​layers of loss
layers of messy
layers of hope
layers of dreams
layers of following along
layers of doing my own thing
all mixed together

in the end
i learned
anger can be beautiful
in my Wabi Sabi world
as long as I don't dwell there too long
(and my house is cleaner...)

​this painting...
Two daisies.
Connected
one is turning away
Even as the other tries to hold it close
perhaps this painting is about more than
​just these flowers

A painting mess

 jump in (it's not in my nature - I plan and figure it all out first)

Fear is on this ride.
But as I learned from Big Magic...
fear no longer get's to drive. 

The ugly stage comes and goes.
a stage in every painting and in every life. (sometimes more than one)
I have to walk away - sleep it off - ignore the fear beast.
sometimes art get tucked away for a while
but eventually I have to come back

find the beauty in the trees
Find the trees in the chaos
Find me in the chaos
Find peace in me

this is why i do this. 
wabi sabi is finding beauty in the mess,
in the broken, in the imperfections
​that are this LIFE... it is imperfectly beautiful. 

to find beauty in the imperfections. 
"to make visible that which without me would not be seen"

my art is a safe place
to find peace and beauty
and by finding this peace and beauty in artwork, 
translate that to my life.