lessons from a hat

We carefully curate our lives.
We show the best of us.
How are you? fine. you?
Look at my beautiful facebook life!
and if it isn't beautiful -
yeah - no one wants to really deal with that
they have their own crap to deal with
and soft delete.

I got a new hat!
cute little ragged heart
and it says "Life is good"
I got it for camping.
Hat equals Shampoo
as my friend James says.

I haven't worn  a hat 
since a boy gave one to me.
I was probably 19.

Last week 
I ran upstairs to get dressed
to take the dog on a walk.
I came down
and she has something...
puppies!!!

she dropped it instantly
knowing...
she had chewed off
"Life is Good"
and left the rest of the hat in tact.

I could not believe
she had eaten ONLY "life is good"
I was sad about this hat.
Sad that I had left if for her to get.
And that she had EATEN "LIFE IS GOOD"

LIFE IS GOOD...
But the metaphor is not lost on me
it has been a ruff few years.
Letting go of a dream you have had 
since you were 5... well
let's just say, it is a ruff go. 

this one little event
Life is good - but sometimes it is not.
I've been journaling about this hat.
and I try to live my life 
by WabiSabi - it is the belief that there is beauty in things that are not perfect.
I also call it Beautiful Grunge. 

And in my life I have lots of grunge.
and I realize that this is the perfect example
and I get relearn this over and over.

Putting a label of Life is Good 
is not really how I roll.
Life is complex might be better.
So the expectation that Life is Good
has been completely removed
from my hat
grunge love remains
but good... well, that is all relative. 




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